"I'm so scared but I don't show it" -Lenka

"I'm a lil' bit caught in the middle,
life is a maze and love is a riddle,
I don't know where to go,
I can't do it alone and I don't know why,
I'm just a lil' girl lost in the moment"


Things happen, but I just don't know how to react anymore.


Should I just let it be?

Should I do things that I don't want to do just to please some people?

Should I regret my decisions?

Should I try to change things so that they become like they were before?

Should I just go with the flow?

Should I refuse to change?

Should I try to escape from them?

Should I just.... not care?


What should I really do?


I don't know...


All I know is that I'm LOST..
lost in this world where ...
everything is moving too fast...
everyone is expecting something from you...
nothing you say matters...
noone really cares...



behind this smile I give, there are tears, fear, anger, worries, a lil' bit of happiness... I prefer to give people a smile, wether it is sincere or not.. I'm just good at it...


SMILE like NOTHING bothers... :)
"I'm so scared but I don't show it" -Lenka
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# Posté le mercredi 04 novembre 2009 14:15

back to school

back to school
my beloved family



...back to school...
well summer is over.
it's been like a month now.
haha
haven't updated since a while.
a lot of things happened since...

I went to disneyland twice (Ayong's b'day & Claire's),
I went to Musée du L0uvre twice (Anaclaafi+Louise),
I had a boyfriend in March and we broke up last 2 weeks (it was me.. I mean, I was the one who broke us up),
Jeudis memorables,<3
I went to Malaysia, of course. :)
Met those people I've always wanted to meet,
Ayong got engaged,
etc..


I had a lot of sweet memories to be kept in my mind forever. All those things we did, thanks to my family members, Anabelle, Claire, Louise, Sandra & Les Pécables (especially le 2ème). I love you all. Thanks to those who made my summer & my stay in Malaysia livingful & memorable.

Anyway, class has started, I'm the only girl in my class, my classmates are most of them cool, though I don't talk that much. Oh, I'm having my first lil test tomorrow...so, I gotta go now!

tooddles!



The Red Jumpsuit Appartus - Love Seat
Parachute - One Small Step

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# Posté le mercredi 07 octobre 2009 14:56

Walk Away..

Walk Away..
All I wanna do is walk away.'Cause I don't wanna lie to you.'Cause if I stay I'll end up hurting you.And I don't wanna break your heart.It doesn't matter what I'll say.It doesn't matter what I'll do.I can't make it right even though I want to.I'm not gonna say that we're okay.I don't wanna lie.I should have told you long ago, what was going on.I should have told you my feelings, were not that strong.I lived a lie, it wasn't fair.I'll say good-bye because I care.I wish I knew what i'm suppose to do.I wish I could be there for you to ease the pain.
-Al0ha fr0m h3ll


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# Posté le dimanche 12 juillet 2009 02:25

Modifié le dimanche 12 juillet 2009 03:38

♥♥♥ SUMMER ♥♥♥

♥♥♥ SUMMER ♥♥♥
It's summer baby! ♥♥♥
haha. I'm so happy! I got my BAC S! :) Eventhough I didn't get any mention, I still got it and I'm happy enough. ;)
could have done better, but wth? ^^ Oh, I got 15 for my indonesien malay exam. haha that's surprising. :D I might be staying here though. Nevertheless, everything is still possible ;) I'm like 80% sure to continue my studies here. Anyway, I'm on holidays!! at last!!!! you can't imagine how happy I am! it's just that, I need to get out of this town a bit because it's getting boring and if I'm going to stay here for 2 years more, I have to get out sometimes... I'm going back to Malaysia on August, the 1st, but I'm thinking about going back a week before that..I don't know if we can change the date. =.='. I'd really love to do so. huhu. I asked abah for a new phone.. hope that he'll buy me one.. my phone is malade ATM: it keeps switching off at times and it doesn't keep the call history anymore. %) Donc, c'est chiant. I can't wait to go back to Malaysia and meet those I've been wanting to meet for a long time! I miss them so much. I miss Angah, Waffy & Abah. I hope that everything will be OK and that a month won't be THAT short! I wanna have fun and live to the fullest there! ^^ OK, I'll be missing those who are here too.. but I've been missing those who are there much more!!!! haha.. Oh la la.. I really can't wait! Mince, I've got to go, gotta pack my things.. toodles! ♥






The Format - Inches and Falling
The Smiths - Please, please let me let me have what I want
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# Posté le jeudi 09 juillet 2009 17:51

I should have said NO

I didn't know that this would happen.
I didn't know that you'd be attached.
I'm afraid of commitment.
I don't want you to be attached.
I've tried my best not to.
and I did so.
but I don't know about you anymore..
I don't want to hurt you.
I don't want you to be hurt.
I don't want you to wait for me.
I feel so guilty.. am I being selfish? All I wanted was some fun... nothing serious.
please tell me that you're not in love and you won't be sad when I'm not around anymore..
I'm not worth it.
I'm sorry... I'll never finish saying sorry but I'm really sorry.
Well, I might be sad but... I know that I can get over it.
I hope you would too.
I'm not the one you think I am..
I'm just not.
We've never got the chance to really know each other.. we see each other as much as we can.. but we'll never really know each other..
All that I wanna say is thanks.. and sorry..
I know you'd never read this article but maybe one day, if you come across it, I think you should know who you are.
Thanks for all these good times, thanks for being there when I need you...

Sorry for not being the best of me, sorry... sorry.. and sorry..






Someone Like You - Tyler Hilton
I'm done - PCD



I should have said NO
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# Posté le dimanche 05 juillet 2009 09:35

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